Giving

She is always giving….a quality in her that I absolutely adore. xx

The weather here has been absolutely gorgeous.  Spring’s surprise visit– sunshine and a warmish breeze that beckons us outside to relish in it.  When are gifted days like this, I reflect and appreciate that little things that make my life so full.  Mady’s gorgeous blond tufts grazing the air (as she runs to keep up with the neighbor kids); Chase’s surreal imagination; Ella’s giggles…and the progress she has made with walking (strength building).  Gentle reminders of what makes life so grand.

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about *life*…choosing to fill my life with doing what I love…spending my precious time with those who love me, support me, and accept me– flaws and all.  With all the scares we have had with Ella, I see things from a different perspective.  Rather than trying to please everyone, and make things perfect (often a one-sided effort)…I am choosing to let go.  Letting go of grief, disappointment, anger and sadness….embracing the love; instead of asking why– accepting the answers…or lack thereof.  Appreciating the wonderfulness that blankets my life.  Friends who are my family–when family fails.  The kindness can bring me to tears.  Gosh I am so thankful…beyond words. The duality of life of suppose.  I have so many dreams for my children.  I hope that they realize how special they are.  I hope that they fight for their bonds.  Standup for each other–against the odds.  Always do right by one another. Let’s face it, life can be cruel…no matter how sweet, thoughtful, and generous you are.  Good people are out there…they are life’s wildflowers.  You have to search for them...endlessly on this journey.  When you find them, water them with love, send them sunshine: in any form (a phone call, a special email, a helping hand, etc.).  They will love you right back. Today, I share pictures of my youngest wildflower.  She is a wildflower, indeed.  So charismatic and sweet…full of life and love.  So strong…whatever her future holds, she will handle it with grace, pizzazz, and her unfailing charm.  Today, baby girl, I water your soul with the food of life –that is my love…you will never…never know how much I love you–it’s a magical love. I love all my kids this way…Todd, too.  But, just for today…I share Ella.  Please pray for her…so she will walk someday…be strong…inside and out.  I know in my heart that she will be fine, no matter what the outcome is.  It’s this tough journey through the unknown that is so difficult.  Today, I thank Bobbie, Jane, Doreen…Takla & Kris…. I love you.  You two have been such a good friends to me.  Who would have thought?!  Each of you are amazing.  Blessed…this I know.

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I’ll wrap this up by sharing something that touched me…so deeply.  (A sweet poem I found in our doctor’s office.)  Words of wisdom to parents everywhere:

Happy Friday.

~j